Soul Development
by Diane Linsley
I once sat in a three-hour session with a Zen teacher in Boulder,
Colorado. He led me through the Mondo Zen process, which
helped to dissolve my ego boundaries until I experienced a kensho,
which is a short-lived but profound experience of the Transcendent.
When the kensho came to an end, I watched with fascination as my
ego gradually reconstructed itself. I started crying, and the teacher asked me what I was thinking.
I told him that I was seeing my ego as a visual metaphor. It looked like a huge building. I could see many things about the building that I wanted to change, but I didn't know how, and I felt ashamed. At the same time, I was experiencing a profound feeling of self-compassion.
He replied that this is why we do spiritual work. We don't go into the Transcendent to escape from the suffering of the ego. We do it in order to see the ego more clearly. It's a humbling experience to see what we need to change. Each time we go through this cycle, the ego matures a little more.
The Different Parts of Ourselves
We are made up of different parts or layers. When we incarnate, we put on these layers, as if we are putting on clothes. When we die, we remove these layers again in reverse order.
Various spiritual traditions use different systems and terminology. In this article, I'm using very basic terms and concepts.
1. Pure Awareness - Also known as Spirit, the Absolute, or the Ground of Being. This is hard to describe because it has no physical, mental or emotional aspects. It is pure awareness without any content. You tap into it whenever you have an experience of oneness or witnessing.
2. Soul - Also called the Individuality or the Individual Spirit. The experiences from your past lives and life between lives are stored in the soul. The soul progresses as it acquires more experience.
3. Astral - Before incarnating, the soul creates an astral body. This body includes emotions, images and creative potentials. During an out-of-body experience (OBE or astral projection), your awareness moves from the physical body to the astral.
4. Etheric - The etheric body (or energy body) contains your life force or chi. The etheric body maintains the health of the physical body. Within days after death, the etheric body dissolves.
5. Physical - Now it's time to incarnate in a physical body.
6. Ego/Personality - The ego isn't a body. It's a construct like a map. I like to call it your map of reality, which includes all of your beliefs about yourself and the world. Your personality type is part of the map because it's the way that you process information. It's not you. Your map of reality was created by you to help you function in the physical world. Your true self is the map maker - the person holding the map.
The Purpose of the Ego
"I am always conscious of myself as two - my soul and I." ~Walt Whitman
Your personality is unique to this lifetime. Along with your physical body, it was created to help your soul experience mortality. Your soul is a unique individual, but it's not the same as your personality. You can verify this by doing spiritual work that takes you beyond the ego/personality.
The ego is not the "bad guy," as some people believe. It is simply the most recent step in evolutionary development. For this reason, it's still immature. The ego is what distinguishes us from animals. Animals lack the problems of the ego, but they also lack the corresponding freedom.
The goal at this stage of human development is to mature the ego. You can't get rid of the ego, but you can experience moments of egoless awareness, as I did in the Zen experience, which can help you to separate from the ego long enough to see it more clearly.
You have built-in ego "voices" that help you function in the physical world. These voices have jobs to do, but they are in various stages of maturity. Immature voices cause many problems. This becomes clear when you do Voice Dialogue, which is a highly effective spiritual practice.
Incarnation and Death
"The ego is frightened by death because ego is part of the incarnation and ends with it. That is why we learn to identify with our soul, as the soul continues after death. For the soul, death is just another moment." ~Ram Dass
Here's what I have concluded after studying many spiritual traditions: After death, you enter the astral realm, where you process your life experiences. This is the long version of the life review that near-deathers (including me) have experienced. When this work is done, you release your astral body and dissolve into the Ground of Being, which is like a resting place.
Eventually, you come back to your unique soul identity, which contains all of your memories. Then, with the help of spiritual guides, you create new astral, etheric and physical bodies for your next lifetime. These bodies are designed to help you accomplish your soul's purpose.
This is assuming, of course, that you still have lessons to learn and work to do on Earth. Eventually, we finish our Earth lives and move on to the next stage of existence, whatever that may be.
The Soul's Purpose
"Call nothing thy own except thy soul. Love not what thou art but what thou may become." ~Dale Wasserman, Man of La Mancha
The purpose of life is to bring into physical reality the potentials that we have, which were created in the astral body before incarnating. These potentials begin with the experiences and knowledge gained in previous lifetimes. We grow as we work on bringing these potentials to fruition.
In a podcast called Is Free Will an Illusion?, Ken Wilber says that the work of each lifetime begins at the level to which you rose in your previous lifetime. This is your set point. This starts happening sometime after childhood. Childhood is the time for forming the ego and maturing the physical body in preparation for your life's work.
When you mature enough to reach the level of development that you achieved in your previous lifetime, your life may suddenly become very challenging because you have hit a temporary ceiling.
Many clients have told me that life was relatively easy until they suddenly hit the ceiling. Ever since then, it's been one challenge after another. They are upset by this phenomenon because they think it means they did something wrong. But it simply means that you are being stretched to grow beyond the comfort zone of your previous level of development.
Which character traits came naturally to you, and which ones did you struggle to develop? This can be a clue to understanding your past lives and what your soul is trying to accomplish now.
The Soul's Journey
After my diagnosis of Graves' disease in 2016, I read a series books by Michael Newton. I then found a way to connect with my soul without having a life-between-lives regression. I developed a new paradigm for my life, which involves aligning the desires of my ego with the goals of my soul.
I realized that my soul chose the circumstances of my life. Obviously, my ego didn't choose to suffer. My soul chose my parents, my physical body, and my personality to set the stage for continuing growth.
Until we accept that our souls chose the circumstances of our lives, we think that we are victims, and we believe that something went wrong. The ego can't take responsibility because it didn't choose these things in the first place.
It can be difficult to believe that your soul has your best interests at heart, especially when it asks you to do things that are very challenging. The best way to cope with this is to move forward with faith.
The Higher Self
My year-long experience in the Third Rank of Tozan was profound, and it was difficult to come back to the ego afterwards because I could see its dysfunction so clearly, which was painful.
Eventually, I came to understand why my higher self loved me so much. This gave me more insight into the mirror kensho that I experienced prior to enlightenment. The soul needs the ego/personality in order to progress. This is contrary to the common teaching that the ego is bad and should be gotten rid of.
The higher self is the soul's highest potential - what the soul is working towards. An encounter with your higher self is a life-changing experience that helps you see what you are capable of.
As the soul struggles with the ego, it learns and grows. Our job is to help the ego mature. It's like a parent helping a child to mature. The qualities of the higher self are what we are reaching for.
"Soul development should take precedence over all things." ~Edgar Cayce
You came into this world with nothing, and you will leave with nothing except for a more developed soul.
Working on All the Bodies
We can work on the physical body with diet and exercise. We can work on the etheric body by doing energy work, chakra balancing or Qi Gong.
We can work on the astral body by practicing lucid dreaming and out-of-body experiences. OBE practitioners lose the fear of death as they practice separating their awareness from the physical body in order to explore the astral plane. One of my favorite spiritual practices is dream yoga.
It is even possible to experience pure awareness. This was a profound experience for me. I put myself into a trance and deconstructed myself until everything vanished except for pure awareness.
I started by repeating the question over and over, "Who am I?" Physical sensations vanished as I went into the state of "body asleep, mind awake." I kept going deeper and deeper. Finally, the last sounds and images of the astral plane vanished as I went beyond the astral into pure awareness.
This state was absolute "no-thing-ness" - like outer space with no stars. There was awareness, but no objects of awareness. I don't know how long I was in this state because there was no sense of time.
Then I saw a flash of light like a supernova exploding out of the darkness, and everything began to come back in reverse order, piece by piece, until I was "re-incarnated" as my whole self again. When the last layer (the ego) came back, I exclaimed, "Oh, my gosh! That was amazing!!"
Having an intellectual understanding and having an experience are two different things. I often have spontaneous experiences first, and then I go looking for explanations.
Alternatively, I may read about a concept and then have a personal experience to verify its truth. I wrote this website in the hope of encouraging you to have your own experiences.
Here's a higher self meditation.
Be well,
Diane Linsley
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